This time last year I had only been home for a few hours. I was delirious due to lack of sleep, overjoyed to have you safely in my arms and totally bewildered by the fact that you were really here. My labour with you started slowly and then developed very quickly into a bit of an emergency but in the end, your birth was calm and I did it all by myself.
Freddie, this year has been the hardest and best of my life. But I would go through every single difficult moment with you because I have never loved someone so completely. You complete me, you complete us. You made us into a family and I have never stopped feeling grateful for the fact that you choose us to be your Mama and Dadda.
God, you are beautiful baby boy. You have the bluest eyes in the whole world and that little laugh makes me smile every single time I hear it. Watching you grow, watching you change and develop has been a pleasure, an absolute pleasure and a privilege.
I am so, so proud of you. We have been through such a whirlwind of a journey together but each day you do something, no matter how small, to remind me that we’ve got this, that I’ve got this. Please know, that no matter what, I will always be here for you. Whenever you need me, I will be waiting. I love you so, so much, more than I could ever explain in words. I know you feel it though and that’s enough.